Thursday, December 20, 2012

If This is Truly the End...

As I am sure you all know by now, there are many who believe that tomorrow, 12/21/12, may be the end of the world. Do I believe this? I really don't know. I believe it's possible, but I believe it's just as possible that the next day or any day after that is just as likely to be the end.  My point is, we can never say for sure when it will be our last day on Earth. 

All of this talk of the end of the world has definitely gotten me thinking though. Have I been living everyday like I could face my Judgement the next? Have I been loving my friends and family like I might not see them tomorrow?  If tomorrow is truly the end and today is my last chance to let the people that mean the most to me know just how important they are, then I am going to take this opportunity to do just that. 

I decided to write a note to the most important people in my life. I know, I could have just written it and given it directly to them without posting it on my blog for the world to see, but I decided that I want the world to see. I want to have it here, on record, for however long we have left, just how important these people are to me.  If we wake up on Saturday and have more time, I want to have this out there to remind me that I need to live each day as though it could be my last.

To My Loved Ones,

If this truly is our last day here, I want to take this chance to let you all know how blessed and thankful I am to have had each of you in my life.

To my father, thank you for stepping in and being an amazing and loving dad to my sister and I. You have been a REAL father to us, shared DNA or not. You have supported us and our mother through some challenging times and some pretty ridiculous teenage attitudes. Thank you for being an amazing dad and now an incredible grandfather.

To my mother, thank you for being the strongest woman I have ever met. You worked a hard everyday of my life to make sure that my sister and I would never want or need for anything. You have been an amazing example of what a wife and mother should be. You have supported me through everything I have ever attempted. I always knew I could go to you for guidance and love. Thank you for being a wonderful mother and now a fantastic Nonna.

To my sister, thank you for being the goofy, loving sister that you are. When I look back at us growing up, I don't know how I could have done it without you. You have been my support system, my comic-relief, and my partner-in-crime. I have been so blessed to be able to grow up with not just a sister, but an amazing friend. Now, I get to see you be the best aunt in the world to my little boy. Thank you for being the best sister, my closest friend, and now an unbelievable aunt.

To my sons, you are the loves of my life.

To my first born, you are my goofy, rough, tough, wild, little boy, but you are also sweet, cuddly, and incredibly loving with endless hugs and kisses for your Mommy and Daddy. Although I have not even had two whole years with you yet, I have already been more blessed than I ever thought possible. I pray that I will get to see you grow up to be the strong and incredible young man that I know you can be. Thank you for being the most amazing, perfect child a mother could ever ask for.

To my unborn son, I haven't even met you yet, but I love you just like you were in my arms right now instead of still in my belly. I can already tell that you would have been my little trouble-maker, but I been looking forward to your mischief everyday since the day I discovered I was having you. I pray that I will still have the chance to cuddle you and to see how much your big brother is going to love you. Thank you for blessing me with these last few months of bonding and getting to feel you wiggle around in my belly.

To my husband, you are my best friend. You are the most amazing man I have ever met. You work hard every single day so that your son and I can have a great life. I don't know what I would do without you, you are my strength. Thank you for loving me, even when I have not been the most lovable. Thank you for giving me the most amazing little boy in the world and another on the way, and for loving them with everything you have. Thank you for choosing me and blessing me with your love everyday since the day we met.

I love you all and I wanted to make sure you all know exactly how I feel. If this was my last chance to tell you, then I am truly sorry that I waited so long to let you know how much you all mean to me. If we get more time, then I will make sure to do a much better job from now on to let you know how thankful I am to have all of you in my life.

With All My Love,
Carmen